martha_saur

theme

2006-11-10T20:06:19Z

my user name (martha_saur) is based off my nickname "marthasaurus rex".
the name originated back in 1992
because of this:

theme

2006-10-16T15:46:05Z

tattoo print above head

sweatshirt

favorite painting

his shirt

world's biggest grandfather clock

dress

in right

my cousin's steez

cake

my old home

tshirts

martha_saur @ 2006-09-26T10:46:00

2006-09-26T15:46:21Z

martha_saur @ 2006-09-07T02:07:00

2006-09-07T07:07:41Z

drunk and in college.

martha_saur @ 2006-07-28T04:04:00

2006-07-28T09:05:54Z

i have a really close guy friend.
little does he know that i've sort of kind of in secret liked him.
he kissed me tonight under a porch on the basement stoop.

so what happens now ?

martha_saur @ 2006-06-14T12:08:00

2006-06-14T17:09:04Z

martha_saur @ 2006-06-05T14:10:00

2006-06-05T19:10:42Z

martha_saur @ 2006-06-03T12:30:00

2006-06-03T17:30:46Z

prom 2006

was fucking great.

martha_saur @ 2006-05-15T00:07:00

2006-05-15T05:11:03Z

hi martha.
where've you been lately ?
your head is somewhere else.
completely.
you're fickle.
you're everywhere.
you're in and out of the doctor,
group therapy,
and yet you continue to reach for your pack of marlboro lights.
on the bright side you quit smoking pot for real this time, right ?
it's always for real this time, isn't it.
it made you puke last weekend.
because you tanked your beers as usual.
you can't handle the drug overload, honey.
you used to.
but you're far from where you used to be.
blame the coked up "best" male friend you were so in love with.
rolling in the high life.
in and out of seratonin bursts.
you just need help, don't you ?
ok.
well.
here's a cigarette.

martha_saur @ 2006-03-07T00:07:00

2006-03-07T06:10:12Z

i got invited into a chat room today by one of nick's friends
only to be laughed at and degraded.
so i left.
i assumed that everything between us was in the past
he brought out the worst person in me,
and i'm so happy and better now
but this just upset me so much.

martha_saur @ 2006-03-05T21:40:00

2006-03-06T04:01:55Z

1.EVER BEEN GIVEN A RING?
gumball machine ones. the best.

2. LONGEST RELATIONSHIP?
10 months

3. LAST GIFT YOU RECEIVED?
bottle of rasberry vodka and ginger ale

4. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU DROPPED YOUR CELL?
that number is not capable of being counted

5. WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU WORKED OUT?
who gives a crap

6. THING(S) YOU SPEND A LOT OF MONEY ON?
food, "entertainment"

7. LAST FOOD YOU ATE?
piece of chocolate

8. FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?
smile

9. ONE FAVORITE SONG:
right now i love 'one more night'

10. WHERE DO YOU LIVE?
pr

11. HIGH SCHOOL YOU ATTENDED?
maine south, iit soon

12. CELL PHONE SERVICE PROVIDER?
verizon

14. LONGEST JOB HELD:
my current position at starbucks, pushing 9 months

15. DO YOU OWN A PAIR OF DICE
maybe

16. DO YOU PRANK CALL PEOPLE?
not as often as i used to

17. LAST WEDDING ATTENDED?
my cousin in new york

18. FIRST FRIEND YOU'D CALL IF YOU WON THE LOTTERY?
krissy

19. LAST TIME YOU ATTENDED CHURCH:
my cousin's wedding in july

20. FAVORITE FAST FOOD RESTAURANT:
potbelly's

21. BIGGEST LIE YOU HAVE HEARD:
anything out of george bush's mouth

23. WHERE'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO EAT WITH FRIENDS?
haha. ihop. no reason why.

24. CAN YOU COOK?
no.

25. WHAT CAR DO YOU DRIVE?
2002 red camry

26. BEST KISSER?
uhmmm... derek or sean

27. LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
don't recall

28. MOST DISLIKED FOOD:
asparagus

30. THING YOU DISLIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF:
no one should answer this sort of question.

32. LONGEST SHIFT YOU HAVE WORKED AT A JOB?
9 1/2 ish

33. FAVORITE MOVIE?
i love so many from too many genres

34. CAN YOU SING?
i can. maybe not well.

35. LAST CONCERT ATTENDED?
rolling stones

36. LAST KISS?
i kiss everyone goodbye.

37. LAST MOVIE RENTED:
fear. mark wahlberg takes his shirt off WOO !

38. THING YOU NEVER LEAVE HOME WITHOUT?
keys

39. FAVORITE VACATION SPOT?
london, hawaii, africa

40. DO YOU LIKE CHINESE FOOD?
yes

41. HOW BIG IS YOUR BED?
plain old twin

42. IS YOUR ROOM CLEAN?
never

43. LAPTOP OR DESKTOP COMPUTER?
dad's laptop

44. FAVORITE COMEDIAN?
chris rock

45. DO YOU SMOKE?
socially

46. SLEEP WITH OR WITHOUT CLOTHES ON?
always clothes because my parents wake me up by ripping the blankets off me every morning. that way i avoid an unecesarry embarrasing

47. WHO SLEEPS WITH YOU EVERY NIGHT?
lee, my bear from the town i was born in

48. DO LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS WORK?
no

49. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BEEN PULLED OVER BY THE POLICE?
once

50. PANCAKES OR FRENCH TOAST?
waffles

51. DO YOU LIKE COFFEE?
no. and i work at starbucks. ironic.

52. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?
poached

53. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ASTROLOGY?
at times. i'm very interested though. and i am very much a taurus

54. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE:
george

55. LAST PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALL LIST?
krissy

56. WHAT WAS THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECIEVED?
you ok? -joe

58. NUMBER OF PILLOWS?
i sleep with three, and there's others all over the bed just because i love company.:P

59. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW?
white capris, black tank, afs zippie

60. PICK A LYRIC, ANY LYRIC OR SONG?
he starts with her back, because that's what he sees, when she's breaking his heart, she still fucks like a tease. release to the sky, look him straight in the eye, and tell him right then that you wish he would die.

61. WHAT KIND OF JELLY DO YOU LIKE ON YOUR PB & J SANDWICH?
i like most of them

62. CAN YOU PLAY POOL?
i can, not too well, mind you.

63. DO YOU KNOW HOW TO SWIM?
yes

64. FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
banana

65. DO YOU LIKE MAPS?
they're alright

66. TELL ME A RANDOM FACT ABOUT YOURSELF?
my bday is april 28, but i've always felt it should be my half bday, october 28. that is my favorite day of the year, and i always feel more accomplished and the best i can be on that day.

68. EVER ATTEND A THEME PARTY?
no

69. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON?
fall

70. LAST TIME YOU LAUGHED AT SOMETHING STUPID?
uhmm krissy. not long ago

71. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP THIS MORNING?
went to sleep at 6am, krissy woke me up at 9 by being a loud motherfucker

72. BEST THING ABOUT WINTER?
tubing / sledding / getting drunk on the sled hill and having a big snowball fight all night

73. LAST TIME A COP GAVE YOU A TICKET?
december 2004

75. NAME OF YOUR FIRST PET?
sophie

76. DO YOU THINK PIRATES ARE COOL OR OVERRATED?
if the pirate is johnny depp, then yes. very cool.

77. WHAT ARE YOU DOING THIS WEEKEND?
this coming weekend ? having fun

79. WHAT IS THE THIRD LETTER OF YOUR NAME?
r

80. HOW OLD ARE YOUR PETS?
maggie is 10 and wilbur is 6 months old

82. ARE YOU SICK?
no

83. DO YOU GO TO SCHOOL?
yes.

84. IS THE BATHROOM OPEN?
yes.

85. ARE YOU ON A LAPTOP?
yes.

86. ARE YOU WATCHING MTV?
no

87. ARE YOU SMILING?
if reese wins, i will be

88. DO YOU HAVE ON EYELINER?
no

90. ARE YOU BLONDE?
naturally, yes.

92. Who is your crush?
not sure anymore.

93. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NAME?
autumn

94. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR BATHING SUIT?
brown

95. DOES YOUR SCHOOL START IN AUGUST?
i don't know

96. DID YOU GO ON VACATION LAST MONTH?
yes

97. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON A CRUISE?
when i was very young

99. ARE YOU UPSTAIRS?
yes

100. What is/are you favorite sports?
soccer

martha_saur @ 2006-03-05T11:36:00

2006-03-05T17:38:19Z

mmm love♥

martha_saur @ 2006-03-02T16:01:00

2006-03-02T22:01:22Z

My Personal Dna Report

martha_saur @ 2006-02-20T13:44:00

2006-02-20T19:44:19Z

i'm going west
i'm the breeze
+ earth
+flow
rock
hip
motion -> to the shore
with mist
my threshold
with mist
i crag the motion
facs shining with soft
and angelic
i want a feather pillow
to hold my tension
because i'm worth a honey packet
and three cents.
do you make sense ?
will i see you tomorrow?

writeres need variety. as i read this book it's the same repetition and pattern and my mind can't flow in consistencyi've never been consistant anyway bceause i moved eight times and when i finished unpacking we moved again honey that's nine !
i am spiraling into a bad movie or that christmas party where it's silent and we all look to one another with a sheepishly comatose expression. i'm doing hard drugs in my bedroom with my friends and passing out cold on the floor and spiraling more and moreand moreandmoreandmore. ther e is no explanation at allllll and i'm finishing up.
can you please love me for my personality?please?

martha_saur @ 2006-02-14T00:19:00

2006-02-14T06:19:21Z

martha_saur @ 2006-02-13T17:31:00

2006-02-13T23:32:27Z

i feel as if i'm losing my best friend.
and i'm so upset
so i'm just avoiding her,
which i'm sure isn't helping any.
so.

i'm lost.
♥

martha_saur @ 2006-02-02T16:40:00

2006-02-02T22:42:33Z

i made it to school by 3rd period,
where 10 minutes in i felt clammy and queasy.
so i asked to go to the nurse.
she got worried, but i insisted on staying for my next period.
which i did.
then i went home and straight to my doctor.
he said it was for sure a concussion, but i was definately neurologically ok.
just a little traumatized and shaky.
he sent me to the hopsital where i got 7 skull xrays.
and they're looking for a hairline fracture.
everything "looks ok"
but they'll call tomorrow.

and now i'm watching arthur.
so it's a good day.
:)

♥

martha_saur @ 2006-02-01T14:22:00

2006-02-01T20:24:46Z

a girl in my PE class accidentally dropped the end of her 45 lb bench press bar onto my head today.
at first i didn't really notice, but five minutes later i had a shooting pain.
i asked to go to the nurse to just grab some ice,
but on the way, i got dizzy and couldn't see straight.
so i finally wobbled in, and they did the "follow my pen with your eyes",
and they shined a light in them as well.
and said i had a concussion
i then had to lay down from the dizzyness.
so they forced me to go home, because i said i didn't want to.
so now i'm laying here waiting to get worse / better.
blahh
♥

martha_saur @ 2006-01-26T00:09:00

2006-01-26T06:13:51Z

i absolutely love my father, and i don't think i say it enough. tonight was far beyond enjoyable. we attended the rolling stones concert. the entire drive out we talked about the music interests we share. i listened to stories about every concert he went to. every alice cooper show he loved. ever fact he knew of the rolling stones. every song. every moment. we arrive and we wander around and drink beers together for 2 hours. we talk about travels and how i feel about college. he tells me stories of his friends drunk and puking in texas. he tells stories of setting up for black sabbath. he tells of his favorite who concert. we watch the most amazing band alive. we have a couple more beers. he quotes to me 'the rolling stones are the greatest band because when the beatles were singing 'i wanna hold your hand' the rolling stones were singing 'get the fuck out of my way''. we sing. we get loud. we drive home and talk about how much fun we had and how we shall repeat it again sometime.
which i look forward to.

martha_saur @ 2006-01-24T20:17:00

2006-01-25T02:17:47Z

if you don't like only me
stop wasting my time.

martha_saur @ 2006-01-19T01:34:00

2006-01-19T07:39:36Z

Guilty Pleasures!
Ground Rules: The first player of this "game" starts with the topic "5 Guilty Pleasures" and people who get tagged need to write an LJ entry about their 5 Guilty Pleasures as well as state this rule. In the end, you need to choose the next 5 people to be tagged and list their names.

1. law and order marathons. even if i've seen every episode already, i can't stay away.
2. tea. peppermint or earl gray
3. religions and reading about many eastern ones. i'm fascinated by every single one.
4. hanson's song "mmbop"
5. long walks in the fall. and banana ice cream.

___oleanders tagged me =]
I TAG:
scarsandstrikes
zerostarrr
shes_my_heroine
angelsurf717
uglysinglesclub
supcornbread

martha_saur @ 2006-01-17T00:21:00

2006-01-17T06:48:20Z

Chapter 1
- Does your boyfriend give you weird nicknames? n/a
- What is your REAL name? martha elizabeth
- Do you appreciate it? sure
- What is your name as it appears on your Birth Certificate? martha elizabeth
- Do you prefer your middle/second name to your first name? no, i like my name. no one has it.
- Has anyone ever made fun of your last name? yes.
- Does anyone ever misspell your name? often.
- How old are you? nearly 18
- What season were you born in? spring
- Does this season suit you? i'm more of a fall person, but yes in a way.
- Were you late or premature? 3 days late.
- How did you celebrate your last birthday? went to a concert and out to a nice restaurant.
- Do you still live in your hometown? no
- What kind of town is it? a small suburb
- Is it famous? a bit.
- What is your nationality? french, spanish, german
- Are you proud of it? sure
- What does your voice sound like? dorky.

Chapter Two
- How much do you care about clothes? not much at all.
- What was the last item of clothing you bought? pink boxers.
- Could you spend hours in a dressing room trying clothes on? no. maybe 30 minutes.
- Are you more of a window shopper than a free shopper? i just sort of wander.
- What do you spend most of your money on? food.
- How important is your appearance to you? i worry a bit, but not a lot. the mirror i use only shows my face, so i don't really think about it.
- Describe your:
Hair: natural blonde, dyed auburn/red
Size: small
Eyes: blue/green
Body shape: short, big ass.
Lips: little
Legs: short and sausagey
Stomach: i have a freckle on it.
Nose: flippy and small. i like it.
Hands: very small and chubby
Fingernails: rarely painted anymore
- What shampoo and conditioner do you use? mane n tail
- Is it a special type of stuff? used for horses. it works very well, though.
- Do you enjoy bubble baths? yes
- How often do you take them? over once a week.
- How long can you lay in them? depends.
- Do you read in the bath? yes
- What bath creme/etc do you use? shower gel from target.
- Do you prefer showers to baths? no. i love both.
- Do you shower daily? yes
- What shower gel or soap do you use? whatever my mom brings me from target.
- Do you wash with flannels or sponges? those poofy balls
- What time of the day do you shower/bath? night
- Do you blow dry or air dry your hair? depends if i'm in a hurry
- What kind of shoes do you wear? cheap flats.
- Do you believe in the theory "you can always tell what kind of person someone is by their shoes"? no. i rarely notice shoes.
- What do you sleep in? pink girl boxers and a sweater
- Do you wear make up daily? mascara
- What, out of the following, do you use?:
Foundation: yes
Powder: no
Pencil Eyeliner: no
Liquid Eyeliner: no
Blusher: no
Eye shadow: no
Mascara: yes
Lipstick: no
Lipgloss: no
- What is your favorite make up brand? uhmm i like clinique a lot.
- Do you think you are naturally pretty, without make up? i suppose.
- Do you think you need make up to feel and look attractive? no
- So describe some of the clothes you wear? earthy, comfortable, simple, a lot of teal
- How often do you pluck your eyebrows? when i notice them
- How often do you shave your legs? when necesarry.

Chapter Three
Bold what applies to your personality
I am:
- Sensitive
- Insensitive
- Warm-hearted
- Sassy
- Sweet
- Creative
- Passionate
- Romantic
- Affectionate
- Unlovable
- Manic depressive
- Depressed
- Thrilled
- Intelligent
- Bright
- Dumb
- Miserable
- Selfish
- Random
- Articulate
- Artistic
- A Daydreamer
- Strange
- Weird
- Fun
- Spontaneous
- Mischievous
- Naughty
- Dirty-minded
- Kinky
- Slutty
- Bitchy
- Two-faced
- Irritable
- Short-tempered
- Loud
- Quiet
- Outgoing
- Shy
- Psycho
- Musical
- Arty
- Witty
- Wise
- Nervous
- Confident
- Annoying
- Serious
- Light-hearted
- Emotional
- Funny
- Silly
- Stupid
- Crazy
- Egotistical
- Bubbly
- Laid back
- Casual
- Easy going
- Trustworthy
- Photogenic
- Loving
- Afraid
- Willing
- Optimistic
- Pessimistic
- Superstitious
- Bookworm
- A Procrastinator
- Bone Idle
- Friendly
- Polite
- Rude
- Reclusive
- Anti-social
- Social
- Gay
- Straight
- Bisexual
- A Failure
- A Success
- Color blind
- Free willed
- Defensive
- Sentimental
- Ambitious
- Easily offended
- Open minded
- Ignorant
- Close minded
- Hypocritical

Chapter Four
- How much television do you watch a day? not much
- Guide me through your day of TV Shows: i watch law and order a lot.
- What are your favourite TV Shows? law and order, south park, family guy, america's next top model
- Are you watching anything right now? no
- What was the last DVD you watched? party monster
- What was the last Album you listened to? bob dylan
- What are you reading at the moment? 'on the road' -jack keroac
- What do you love to do during your spare time? anything at all
- Do you have a job? yes
- What do you want to do? go to college
- On an average day, how do you spend it? with people i love
- What did you do today? woke up late, showered, did an art project, slept, piano lesson, went out to dinner with bob
- What music have you listened to today? duncan sheik, the subways
- How much time do you spend online? too much. obviously
- What else do you do on the computer? talk, myspace, journal, solitare, write
- What are your favourite outdoor activities? soccer, walking, beach
- What is your favourite season? fall
- What is your favourite type of music? i don't have a favorite.
- What brand is your stereo? i dont know, my dad's old one.
- How many Cds can it take? one
- What CD do you listen to most? saves the day, india arie, stevie wonder
-What are your favourite films? i'm too lazy to list them.

martha_saur @ 2006-01-15T21:16:00

2006-01-16T03:34:49Z

i stopped smoking pot a bit recently and i started to look back across my life. i became a nomad at age two. the moving started there. i was cultured and spoke various languages before i could walk. i lived in small apartments, family houses, and youth hostels. i had two working parents and no one was ever home. religion was never forced on me. i remember attending an elementary school where 95% of students were christian or roman catholic. i was called an anti-christ in first grade, and the name didn't disappear until fourth. i went home and asked my mom what religion we were and what i believed in. she looked at me and told me that i believed in what i wanted, and refused to tell me her stance on it. from that point on i spun onto a goal of self discovery. my spirit was always free and unique. i moved to england in my seventh year, and i my eyes were forced to open to a whole new world. big cities, big opportunities. i travelled to africa and saw the meaning of poverty. i learned to appreciate what i had. i saw pain and suffering and happiness. later in my eighth grade year i spun into a world of inferiority. complexes, counselors, need for attention. i was a miserable girl with a miserable chemical imbalance. i moved again for my freshmen year. i didn't fit into my high school environment. i was trapped in myself. i involved myself with drugs and abusive people. i did things i regret. i said things i regret. i felt more alone then necesarry. i was overly suicidal and i became overly obsessive. look up the definition of mess, and that will be an understatement. i was a tragically self absorbed person. i made mistakes. i grew even more. the growth i feel now is more than most people accomplish in lifetimes. i overcame sexual, mental, and physical abuse. i overcame depression. i overcame jealousy and anger and clingyness and rage. i feel as if i need to reach out. i feel as if i love all people. i can't help but wanting to reach out. i need others to feel my wisdom and feel my strength. i want to radiate to you. i'm amazed at the person i've become. and i'm proud of myself. not enough people can open up and say that these days. we should all be proud of ourselves. with this paragraph i'm not claiming to be anything or worse off than anyone. i'm not trying to prove myself. but i've officially come to terms with my person and my being. this is who i am, naked and vulnerable. and it's who i will be. and i'm comfortable with that fact, like it or not. i don't regret anything i've said, but i'm ready to look each an everyone one of you from my past in the eyes and show you who i am now, not who i was then. i am martha. and i am a free spirit and an avid math student.

martha_saur @ 2006-01-14T04:43:00

2006-01-14T10:46:14Z

i must be honest with you, boy,
i don't enjoy watching you charm your countless admirers.
why are you bothering with me at all ?

i've had a terribley lovely evening, however.
board games with foo.
late night dining with matthew, jamie, jim and john.
and going to bed ridiculously late to read.
endless possibilities tomorrow.

i do miss krissy a lot.
this weekend won't be nearly as fun without my best friend.
and i must admit,
not having any female contact makes me feel a bit alone.

♥

martha_saur @ 2006-01-11T00:23:00

2006-01-11T06:32:02Z

i dyed my hair.
and can't decide if i want to keep it.
or not.